Reminders of you

Brandon leaves little reminders of himself everywhere, originally uploaded by wilddreemer.

Someday, when your older and you've moved out, I'm sure I will find little reminders of you, and I'll cry because my once little boy is now gone off to bigger and better things like college and frat parties and beer bongs.

For now, I delight in finding small fleeting reminders of you, of places you were. I would save this apple if I didn't know it's fate of wasting away.

So I captured this photo, to remind me of the morning I woke up, when you were gone at grandmas, yet I found this, and somehow you were still at home with me hiding, in an apple.

Just for memory sake

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FIRST DAY OF PRESCHOOL!

Today was your first day of school. You got all dressed, carried in your back pack and went to class. I went to kiss you good bye and you barely breezed my lips. Dad picked you up to kiss you and you told him, "I wanna go over there," and wiggled away. We left you there and you never looked back. I spent the better part of the day watching you on the little camera in your classroom.

I picked you up today and the first thing you said was, "I cry." I asked you why and you answered "I almost lost you mom." A part of me died inside knowing you thought I had left you there. Your teacher said such great things about you. She said you shared well, you picked up toys, listened and followed directions. I wonder if she was talking about the same kid I know. They told me you woke up from nap and cried for me. I was happy to hear you hadn't totally forgotten me. You ate your first salad today and I was so very proud.

I was overwhelmed to hear how wonderful you were. I hope it continues on this way. Tomorrow you have your very first field trip. I can't wait, but I'm also nervous. I'm packing your first lunch ever. It has watermelon, apples, cheese crackers, string cheese, a whole wheat cheese sandwich and chocolate milk.

I can't believe how big you have gotten. To be in school. You went potty like a big boy, and even though you are in the potty training class, you are already fully potty trained.

I'm crazy in love with you Brandon. I love seeing all the things you learn each day. You never fail to say at least one thing that blows my mind every day. I love to kiss you, even if you wipe it off. I love to hug you, even if you hate to sit still and cuddle me. I love to watch you eat your grown up bowl of cereal every morning and your worm noodles at night.

I love you my baby, even if your in school I can still call you my baby.

Good night sweet boy, I hope you had a great first day. I can't wait to see you in the morning.