brandon, make a silly face

brandon, make a silly face, originally uploaded by wilddreemer.

Moments like this, remind me what a little man you are. I love you so much Brandon. Sometimes I think I forget your still just a little guy. I'm glad I have pictures to remind me your really nothing more then a silly goose egg!

Brandon got a dino face painting

Brandon got a dino face painting, originally uploaded by wilddreemer.

I love you my sweet birthday boy!

The birthday cake

The birthday cake, originally uploaded by wilddreemer.

I aksed him to take a picture and he gave me a kiss, I melted of course

I aksed him to take a picture and he gave me a kiss, I melted of course, originally uploaded by wilddreemer.

3

Three years ago my entire life changed. Three years ago today I was in a hospital room with your dad bringing you in bed with me. You were all swaddled up and I told him I couldn't bear to leave you in your little plastic hospital bassinet. Three years ago I told your dad it was just for one night then you would sleep in your own bed. 23 months later you finally went into your own bed. Three years ago you were all swaddled in your little blue blanky and you shook your tiny wrist like you did in my belly. Three years ago tomorrow I clipped your tiny finger nails and clipped the end of your thumb off. It was a small cut but 3 years later I haven't forgiven myself. Three years ago I realized I would never love anything like I loved you. Three years ago your dad and I spent 30 minutes recording you with your first hiccups going on and on about how cute the tiny noise was. Three years ago your dad discovered you loved to sleep on his chest and you've never left. Three years ago I cried every time you cried. Three years ago I learned your dad was better at swaddling then me. He is still better at most things then me. Three years ago I heard your tiny cry for the first time and I cried and I realized that you were the love of my life. Three years ago I realized I had become that mom. You know, the one who loves their child so fiercly it hurts. Three years ago I delivered the best thing that ever happened to me. Three years ago I fell in love with your dad all over again just watching how much he loved you. Three years ago the most loved little boy ever was born. Three years ago my dad became a papa and you and him have been together ever since. Three years ago my mom finally got her grandson to teach boy things too. Three years ago you were born and all of our hearts opened along with our eyes.

Brandon, I love you more then you're ever going to know. I love you more every second. I miss you when your in the other room. I hope someday you grow up and realize even a fragment of how much I love you. Happy third birthday my dear son. One more time, I love you!